you do not need to constantly justify yourself. go ahead. eat pancakes. eat a ton at dinner. eat ice cream sundaes at 1am. take a rest day. take six rest days. sleep in. watch a movie. watch ten movies. no explanations needed. you’re allowed to be kind to yourself.
if you had told me three years ago i would have the fattest crush on some pigeon toed lanky foreign kid in a fedora with butterfly and bird tattoos, who shoves more bananas down his throat than a monkey and can’t walk in a straight line without injuring himself i probably would have laughed at you
but there is no laughter about this now
only tears and genuine affection for the butterfly fedora boy